It’s been a long time. Haven’t updated this blog in ages. Haven’t had much to say. Time moves forward.

I did a Hell Ride through September. Opened one Aethyr a day, through the whole 30 days. Got all the way through.

You can find all but two of the records on my notes-and-stuff wiki. I couldn’t get myself to transcribe them from audio recordings. It was quite something. It made me think a lot. About who I am, time, space, and how magic appears to work.

And at the end of the day, all I can say is, it doesn’t matter. A shift took place, a re-alignment, which calmed me down, in a fashion.

I can’t seem to find the right words to describe the change that took place. It’s the strangest thing. It’s serene, yet not-serene. Loving, yet not-loving. Hateful, yet not-hateful.

As if everything is immediately negated and brought to the opposite extreme than the one I am attempting to pursue.

And over the past few days, I’ve been attempting to center myself, to reduce my existence to the most fundamental thing I can control: breathing.

It’s… not going great. Paradoxically, every time I try, I find myself roused by interference. Either my phone rings and I’m needed, or someone knocks on the door, or my wonderful wife will want to tell me something.

It’s quite baffling. I wrote about it on the OSOA∴A∴ forum. I’m not sure what it means, or where it’s going.

On a different thread, I’ve been finding more and more that the Western Traditions are only capable of bringing one, at most, up to K&C-ish. Maybe 6=5. 7=4 seems reserved for philosophers and intellectuals, yet even those aren’t very well served by what little the West offers as far as attaining any higher.

It’s quite baffling, but it seems to uncannily go hand-in-hand with the very prominent and destructive rise of corporatism globally. Jupiter, after all, is the planet of capital, as well as government. Is it any surprise that corporations have become their own small governments?

The leap forward will be cataclysmic.